One Year Ago

One Year Ago
x. I had just found out I was pregnant
x. I was on the phone with APU, seeing if I could still attend
x. I had never been more scared in my life
x. I was ashamed to go to church
x. I was afraid to tell Carrie
x. I thought my life was ruined

Today
o. I made it through
o. I have a beautiful baby girl
o. I'm making a way for myself, and for my family
o. I'm breaking the mold, and defying statistics
o. I attend 3 churches ( :
o. I'm on the dean's list
o. I'm tired, sore, restless, and still scared out of my mind,

but this by far, as been one of the most amazing years of my life. I have gone from not sure if my relationship with Dominic would last through the pregnancy, to knowing that I am lucky enough to have found my soul mate in middle school. I have gone from being a carefree teenager, to a full time mother. I have gone from my mother's child, to my mother's friend. I have surprised myself. I have become more frugal, and also more giving. More irritable, but kinder. I am everything I never saw coming, and (almost) everything I've always wanted to be.

Most importantly, I'm not ashamed. "God never gives you anything that you can't handle". He's given me strength when I thought I hit rock bottom, and HE is the reason I am here today, sound mind, body and soul. Without Him, there's nothing.

Far as I can tell, this is the life that's best for me. :)

xo, til next time

A turn for the better :)

This weekend had a rocky start, as I'm sure you all could tell by my previous posts, that aside, it was lovely :)

I was a bit discouraged Saturday morning after multiple go-sees, and even more application hunts, only to be turned down by all by two restaurants. However, I got home and called a woman named Nancy at Covina Evangelical Free Church, and applied for the job as Nursery Worker. And she was so excited to meet me that today she had me come to the service and I had an informal interview!

So I got to the church this morning, and to my sweet surprise the church (CEFC) is led by Pastor Neal Montgomery, yes, Mark's dad. And Caitlin, Daniel, Hannah, Brian, Kaitlyn, Mark & Mason all attend. It was nice to see (some of) them, although I didn't stay long enough to talk. Next week! :)

Needless to say - I think I got the job. No for sure yes's yet, but I'm praying :))

Tonight Dominic's mom is making a yummy Thanksgiving-style dinner, and I have a lot to be thankful for. God works in mysterious ways. After this past week, I was ready to give up the job hunt, and take a semeseter off at APU to watch Kae. But after this weekend, and a probable job prospect, I am ready and rejuvenated to work on Kae's daycare status, and I am certain that it will all work out in the end. (the end really being the beginning, seeing as she's only 6 months old ;D)

Anyway, that's all for now, lots to organize still before school starts, and I want to take advantage of Kae's naptime :))

xo, til next time.

Today was a pretty bad day

although it did have it's high points.


x.bad
not having a loan
having a non-english speaker try and tell me why I don't have a loan
crying on the phone to the aforementioned non-english speaker
calling APU about a money transfer, only to find I have negative money
listening to Kaelyn scream and scream and scream all day
getting yelled at/bossed around like I'm two years old
not being able to find a job
finally finding the PERFECT job with PERFECT hours, and not getting a response
having to apply at target
not being able to open a f***ing stroller (<- Told you it was a bad day)

x.good
lunch with Mrs. Black
Dominic coming over and making Kaelyn giggle like crazy
wrestling (and losing) to Dominic
getting new shoes :)



meh. That's about how I feel, and sadly, I don't think it's going to change.
going to try read la biblia, hopefully it will help.

til next time, xo

FAIL blog.

lately.

x.stressing
o. about money for school
o. about finding a daycare for Kaelyn
o. about my relationship
o. about getting through this semester
o. about not losing my MIND!

x.buying
o. a new baby carrier sling
o. new school clothes
o. books for school (that's my task tomorrow >800 f'ing dollars.)
o. teething rings for babykae

x.working
o. on summer homework for my organic Chem class
o. on finding a job/maybe
o. on staying sane!
o. on getting organized

x.babykae
o. trying to eat out of a bottle
o. eating baby food 3x a day
o. teething (it's awful)
o. knows how to sit up
o. going to mygym on Tuesdays

x.tomorrow's to-do list
o. APU to buy books/school supplies
o. BHS to pick up hand-me-downs from Jill
o. RES to help mom in her classroom
o. Target to get school shoes for my lab classes (closed-toe only)
o. Zerpoli family friend to pick up more hand-me-downs

LINDSAY, hope your happy :))
better blog later

til next time, xo

Oh, get off your high [hobby]horse

I have too many hobbies. I have so many that I start one and can't finish the others. Currently I have

x.multiple unfinished watercolor paintings
x.lots of scrapbooking to do (although I don't have the pictures printed, so that's not entirely my fault)
x.a bathroom to finish painting
x.multiple unfinished crocheting projects (at least two blankets and a scarf)
x.a garden to keep up with
x.a hair-ribbon "business"
& I'm sure there will be more to come.

Gah, I really wish that I could buckle down and just do a project start to finish. The main problem is that I am good at lots of things (see aforementioned list) it's just that I am easily bored/distracted. So I start something, do it for a while, and then come back to it in 6 months. Well, whatever. :P

Anyway, I am going to lunch with Dominic's mom tomorrow. Kinda excited :)) The main reason I am going is to show off princess Kaelyn to Tracie's co-workers, and she said that if I drive all the to Fontana, the least she can do is buy me lunch lol. So, that will be fun. It just means that not only do I have to bath and dress up the baby, I have to bathe and dress-up myself. Oh well, food is my reward, I just gotta keep my eye on the prize :) hah

So today I had lunch with one of my favorite people. Miss Volney Youngstrom (It's like Younquist and Engstrom put together :)) Anyway, we went to our favorite restaurant The Corner Bakery Cafe :) yumm. If you've been there, you know what I mean, if you haven't - go! You will not be dissappointed. I had the salad trio with ceaser, fruit, and potato bacon ranch :) and of course I got my banana carmel baby bundt cake. All this talk about food and no talk about my girlfriend! HA. anyway, Volney is moving back home at the end of this month, and she's gong to be working full-time this year, she's having a hard time making ends meet :/ it's a bummer that I won't be seeing her around APU, but "we're making the best with what we've got" :) I love this girl. Even though she told me she was pregnant.

Speaking of pregnant, I just "met" a wonderful girl, Ashley, who is due in just a couple months with a baby girl! I am so excited for her, and for the life she's about to start! I can already tell that God is working in wonderful ways through this young woman. I cannot wait to meet her in person!

Well, tonight I really don't have much more to say, so like always

till next time, xo.