Good, good day,

This pretty much sums up the attitude of the evening - "They were Wingstop virgins, so I got to pop their Wingstop cherries. And they liked it." Thank you Lindsay.


Loved hanging out with my girls today, it's amazing how much fun we had! :) And Lindsay and I man, we've got sooo many memories! Katie and I do too, and Katie and Lindsay do as well, so it's really neat to go back and see how intertwined all of our lives were/are. One of my favorite quotes of the night was,

"Well Tori, you have a lumpy head too."

"How do you even know that?"

"We were best friends for a long time, we got to know each other reallllly well"

oh Lindsay! :) haha. Other than all of that, it was still a pretty awesome day. I got to work on my garden a little bit (pictures to come when it starts to sprout a bit more), I got to hang with my girls, and I got to end the night hanging out with my babylove:)

This next week is going to be a very busy one. I've got my school work to focus on, I'm going to coffee with Volney Monday, lunch with Tracie Tuesday, out of town relatives are visiting Wednesday, breather Thursday, photoshoot with Lindsay Friday, and my family is leaving for good on Saturday! Yikes! :) It should be fun though!

I'm a little aprehensive as to being home alone for two weeks. I mean, it's one thing to be left alone for a night, or a weekend, or whatever. But two weeks? And then I've gotta lock up when I leave, and then I'm coming home to an empty house. It'll be an interesting month, to say the least :)

Well, bedtime :) I'm going to crash out like this one :)

xo, till next time.

Accomplished.

That's how I feel right now. And it is such a wonderful feeling! I just finsished (well, two hours ago) my exegitical paper for Luke/Acts - it was a beast - but it's good and done! Also, I have the next two weeks completely planned out so I know what I'm doing, and I've got everything under control. I love having everything in a schedule, and my poor planner proves this. But, I loveee having it like this - I call it organized chaos :)

Speaking of chaos, I am already thinking about packing for our trip to Montana. Its 10 days, which isn't too bad, but when you assume that Kaelyn will wear 2-3 outfits everyday (spitup, poop etc. makes for more than a single outfit) plus she needs clean pajamas every other night, and diapers, and socks, and bibs....the list just goes on and on - and we haven't even gotten to me yet! But, it's okay, at least I'm starting early!

Tomorrow I get to hang out with Dominic all day :) yippee! It's because it's one of his 2 days off this week. We are going to hopefully put up my blinds, and we're going to watch Big Brother! Yay! The season premiere is on tomorrow night, channel 11 at 8pm! You should definitley check it out!

I was just looking over my school schedule for this fall - it's intense! I'm going to have zero social life, so I apologize now to all my friends! I've got Laboratory for Health Sciences, Organic Chemistry for Nursing Majors, Anatomy Lecture, Anatomy Laboratory, Intro to Philosophy & 1 & 2 Samuel. Yuck! But, oh well, I just keep telling myself, I gotta get through this, if not for me, for my daughter. She needs someone who can provide for her. Only 4 1/2 more years sweet pea, and mommy can provide for you! :)




I just wanted to share one of my favorite pictures of Kaelyn :)

Friday is girls day! :) I can't wait to hang out with Lindsay and Katie. And we're having wingstop, which I've never had, so it should be interesting! Plus, I love, love, love going in the pool, and so does Kaelyn. I'm sure we will all have a good time, and I'm sure Lindsay will take 100 thousand beautiful pictures!

Well, I suppose it's time for me to go, Kaelyn's getting fussy, so I'll go rescue my mom, and I've got to get to work on cleaning my room for Friday. One of the downfalls to having a baby - everything takes 5 times the amount of time to accomplish!

til next time - xo

Things that Make me Happy

x.Dominic
x.Kaelyn
x.all my new and re-found friends
o.Katie
o.Lindsay
o.Volney
o.Mat
o.Alyssa
x.bar-be-que chicken pizza from Trader Joe's
x.sitting in my room doing nothing
x.The Secret Life of The American Teenager (the show)
x.The Secret Life of The American Teenager (the blog)
x.reading other people's blogs
x.retail therapy
x.thinking about our upcoming trip to Montana
x.watching Kaelyn grow and learn
x.taking care of my garden
x.cooking
o.especially for other people
x.church
x.watching movies
x.watching HGTV
x.taking pictures
x.searching "random" on flickr
x.swimming
x.being a mother
x.diet coke
x.Parent's magazine cute cover kid contest
o.entering Kaelyn in the aforementioned contest
x.making lists
x.crossing things off of lists
x.making lists of things I've already done, just so I can cross those things off
x.summer.

This one is Dedicated to Lindsay

Mainly because she keeps bugging me to update :)

This last weekend was wonderful. Kaelyn got baptized and then we had a lovely party at my house :) One of the most precious gifts that she received is this beautiful dress from Katie. It makes her look like a little fairy princess :)



This week was spent with homework, homework and more homework. It seems like Dominic does homework one day while I watch Kaelyn, and then the next day we switch! But at least in a couple of weeks we will both be done!

Tomorrow is the 4th of July. (after I typed that I thought duh. to myself.) Anyway, parade :) every year my church has a float, and I love to walk with them, but with the baby and the sun, and the possibility of her getting hungry, all lead me to decide to watch it this year. I don't think I've ever watched it, so it will be fun! Plus, when you're watching you get to walk down to the McElwain's home and show off your baby girl :)

So I entered Kaelyn in the Parent's Magazine Cover Model Contest. I'd like to think she has a chance to become a semi-finalist. Although, I'm pretty sure I'm biased. It's steep competition though, they pick the top 20 (of her age group) out of close to 10,000 entrants. So, don't get your hopes up. (that was for me, not you all)

Well, I believe this is all for tonight. I need my sleep, and so do you! So, go to bed!!!

til next time, xo

For Miss Katie :)

My new Hannah Montana buddy-to-be! I cannot wait until we watch the movie together, ahaha, that will be epic :)

Anywho. I really should be sleeping, especially since I have alot to do tomorrow, but, oh well! I have the house to myself this weekend, well, minus Kaelyn of course, but it should be interesting. Am I the only one who finds it odd that I am 19 years old and I have never stayed home alone for a weekend before? Hmm.

Today was my last day of summer school...until Monday. boo. But, I am very happy to have finished one semester of Spanish, yay! And class today actually was really fun, I got to take Kaelyn, and we had a little fiesta. Divertimos muchos :)

Saturday I am going on a mini-shopping spree, and I'm a bit excited. I'm not sure what I am going to get, as there isn't anything I really need, but I want to get myself just a little something :) I also have to get Kaelyn some white (preferably satin) booties for her baptism in two weeks, and I have to get Dominic a Father's Day gift. :) That one I'm pretty excited for. I was reading Katie's blog earlier, and she said how she's not a real swell gift giver, I am her exact opposite :) haha.

So this week I had my first ever run-in with a collections agency - scary! Haha, I had three things a year overdue from the library, and it was over 100$ in fees. So I found two of the three items, I have no idea where that other book went, and I took them down to the library, and the lady was so nice to me, I think I probably looked like I was going to cry. And she was able to reduce my fee to 15$ Sweet! Hence the money for the shopping spree :)

Kaelyn is fast asleep right now. I am so enjoying being a mother. Much more than I thought I would. While I was pregnant I looked at my near future as a chore, I HAVE to change diapers, I HAVE to feed the baby, I HAVE to rock her to sleep, ... etc. But now, although I'm still no fan of diapers, it's gotten to the point where I love every little moment that I get to spend with her. And when she's sleeping, it takes every ounce of willpower not to wake her up to play with her. Ahh, my sweet, sweet daughter.

Speak of the angel, she's waking up. Her ears must be ringing. This is my cue to exit stage right.

till next time. xo.

Reconnecting, good or bad?

I've spent the last week reconnecting with old friends, and making plans with new ones. It started with Katie, we haven't talked in years, since middle school, but it was so great getting to know little bits of her on Facebook, and we decided to hang out. It was a blast, and we're having a playdate Thursday :) So that obviously went well. Well, last week Kaila started talking to me too. She and I haven't talked since before graduation, we had a massive falling out, which I'm not going to get into, for her sake and mine own. Well, it's just weird because I like her, she knows more about me than a lot of people ever will, and I love her family. But, it's hard. I've gone through a radical change in the last year, not just with having Kaelyn, but that is a huge part of it. But, I feel like I don't want to share myself with the people who left and are coming back now. I want to share myself with the people who were with me when the going got tough, when I was 9 months pregnant and they were rubbing my feet, and helping me study, and everything else my fiance and my new friends have done for me. Is it selfish? Is it wrong to not want to go back to high school? I didn't think anything of it until I started talking to Mat today. He's great, by the way, and I am so happy that his life is going so well, but do I want to stay connected to my past? I didn't like who I was then, will I like it now? And if you three people are reading this, I love you guys, I really do. PLEASE don't take this as me trying to cut ties to any or all of you, I'm just trying to grow out of highschool, and I want to make sure that my highschool friends have the same goal, cause I don't want to be stuck there forever.

First Test Today

In my spanish class. I'm a little nervous, I'm sure I'll do fine, but I always get nervous right before a test. We shall see :)

Lunch tomorrow with miss Katie, I'm pretty dang excited, for two reasons :) 1. I am obviously excited to see/catch up with Katie, 2. I have never been to Rubio's haha.

I am addicted to working out! I guess that's a good thing, and it's not like I work out 3 hours a day or anything, but I work out in short 15-20 minute bursts 3 times a day! Only problem, I'm not losing as much weight as I'm hoping for :/ lame!

This morning, Kaelyn was yelling at me, oh dear, it was so cute! First she was just babbling away in baby talk, I was talking to her and she was talking back. Then, all of the sudden, she was yelling, in baby talk of course! And it wasn't crying, or upsetness, it was just rasing her voice! It was very, very cute.

I want to get a pedicure. I think that next time I've got a chunk of money I'm going to splurge and treat myself. :)

Well, that's all for now
til next time...xo

Katie Butkus Inspired Me

And I hope she doesn't see me as a copy-cat, if she does, this will be my one and only blog post :) Otherwise my plan is to help let out my frustrations, joys, trials and news. We'll see if I keep up with it.

One of the hardest things for me is to stick with it. I have started so many projects, and most of them end up halfway done in the back of my closet. I just seem to have no motivation. I'm not sure how to become motivated either. I think the biggest problem is that if it's not what I like from the get go, or if it's turning out different than I planned, I back out. Quitter. :/

On a happier note, Kaelyn is starting to hold her head up really well! I got her this neat seat called a Bumbo. It's a funny looking seat that helps her back muscles, and helps her to sit upright, and I love it! Kaelyn's is purple, but I thought this was such a cute picture, I had to use it :)

That's all for now I guess, I'm not sure how to end this so....

til next time xo.