One Year Ago

One Year Ago
x. I had just found out I was pregnant
x. I was on the phone with APU, seeing if I could still attend
x. I had never been more scared in my life
x. I was ashamed to go to church
x. I was afraid to tell Carrie
x. I thought my life was ruined

Today
o. I made it through
o. I have a beautiful baby girl
o. I'm making a way for myself, and for my family
o. I'm breaking the mold, and defying statistics
o. I attend 3 churches ( :
o. I'm on the dean's list
o. I'm tired, sore, restless, and still scared out of my mind,

but this by far, as been one of the most amazing years of my life. I have gone from not sure if my relationship with Dominic would last through the pregnancy, to knowing that I am lucky enough to have found my soul mate in middle school. I have gone from being a carefree teenager, to a full time mother. I have gone from my mother's child, to my mother's friend. I have surprised myself. I have become more frugal, and also more giving. More irritable, but kinder. I am everything I never saw coming, and (almost) everything I've always wanted to be.

Most importantly, I'm not ashamed. "God never gives you anything that you can't handle". He's given me strength when I thought I hit rock bottom, and HE is the reason I am here today, sound mind, body and soul. Without Him, there's nothing.

Far as I can tell, this is the life that's best for me. :)

xo, til next time

"Places"

Is my new favorite song. It's by Frank and Derol. Victoria Mack introduced me to them, and now I am forever grateful. Check it out. It's fantastic.



So I am sooo happy to have met with Lindsay today :) We had a wonderful time catching up, and she took some beautiful pictures of Kaelyn.

I'm not going to go into details, but Dominic and I have had a tough two days. It's hard being parents, being teenagers, being in love, AND getting along! :) But, things are good, and I am so happy. I have never been so in love, and I can't wait to marry my babylove :)) But that's enough about him - I don't wanna make y'all gag haha!

So tonight Dominic and I decided to go watch the fireworks (just like everyone and their uncle) but anyway, we drove up to the point, and it was jam-packed! Not only was it crowded, we couldn't see any fire works - fail! So then we drove to the new Vons center and wall-la! No people and a perfect view! :))

I made dinner tonight, lasagna:) It was delish!! I'm an excellent baker, but my cooking is hit and miss. Sometimes it's great, and other times it makes you want to eat your own vomit. Haha. Anyway, tonight was a hit. And I made my babylove happy.

I've decided that after church tomorrow I am locking myself in my room and doing ALL my homework. Uggh, not excited about that at all.

Anyway, I'm off to raid the refrigerator.

till next time, xo