One Year Ago

One Year Ago
x. I had just found out I was pregnant
x. I was on the phone with APU, seeing if I could still attend
x. I had never been more scared in my life
x. I was ashamed to go to church
x. I was afraid to tell Carrie
x. I thought my life was ruined

Today
o. I made it through
o. I have a beautiful baby girl
o. I'm making a way for myself, and for my family
o. I'm breaking the mold, and defying statistics
o. I attend 3 churches ( :
o. I'm on the dean's list
o. I'm tired, sore, restless, and still scared out of my mind,

but this by far, as been one of the most amazing years of my life. I have gone from not sure if my relationship with Dominic would last through the pregnancy, to knowing that I am lucky enough to have found my soul mate in middle school. I have gone from being a carefree teenager, to a full time mother. I have gone from my mother's child, to my mother's friend. I have surprised myself. I have become more frugal, and also more giving. More irritable, but kinder. I am everything I never saw coming, and (almost) everything I've always wanted to be.

Most importantly, I'm not ashamed. "God never gives you anything that you can't handle". He's given me strength when I thought I hit rock bottom, and HE is the reason I am here today, sound mind, body and soul. Without Him, there's nothing.

Far as I can tell, this is the life that's best for me. :)

xo, til next time

Oh, get off your high [hobby]horse

I have too many hobbies. I have so many that I start one and can't finish the others. Currently I have

x.multiple unfinished watercolor paintings
x.lots of scrapbooking to do (although I don't have the pictures printed, so that's not entirely my fault)
x.a bathroom to finish painting
x.multiple unfinished crocheting projects (at least two blankets and a scarf)
x.a garden to keep up with
x.a hair-ribbon "business"
& I'm sure there will be more to come.

Gah, I really wish that I could buckle down and just do a project start to finish. The main problem is that I am good at lots of things (see aforementioned list) it's just that I am easily bored/distracted. So I start something, do it for a while, and then come back to it in 6 months. Well, whatever. :P

Anyway, I am going to lunch with Dominic's mom tomorrow. Kinda excited :)) The main reason I am going is to show off princess Kaelyn to Tracie's co-workers, and she said that if I drive all the to Fontana, the least she can do is buy me lunch lol. So, that will be fun. It just means that not only do I have to bath and dress up the baby, I have to bathe and dress-up myself. Oh well, food is my reward, I just gotta keep my eye on the prize :) hah

So today I had lunch with one of my favorite people. Miss Volney Youngstrom (It's like Younquist and Engstrom put together :)) Anyway, we went to our favorite restaurant The Corner Bakery Cafe :) yumm. If you've been there, you know what I mean, if you haven't - go! You will not be dissappointed. I had the salad trio with ceaser, fruit, and potato bacon ranch :) and of course I got my banana carmel baby bundt cake. All this talk about food and no talk about my girlfriend! HA. anyway, Volney is moving back home at the end of this month, and she's gong to be working full-time this year, she's having a hard time making ends meet :/ it's a bummer that I won't be seeing her around APU, but "we're making the best with what we've got" :) I love this girl. Even though she told me she was pregnant.

Speaking of pregnant, I just "met" a wonderful girl, Ashley, who is due in just a couple months with a baby girl! I am so excited for her, and for the life she's about to start! I can already tell that God is working in wonderful ways through this young woman. I cannot wait to meet her in person!

Well, tonight I really don't have much more to say, so like always

till next time, xo.

Mother's Day is coming up!

I am going to blow my mom's mind this mother's day :) I got her the cutest Coach charm bracelet, and she is totally obsessed with that brand right now. Score: Tori 1. Anyway, as for Mother's day, this is my first! That's so exciting. Although Kaelyn is obviously too young to help me celebrate, I am going out to lunch with the moms in Dominic's family, and I am really excited. Yay!

In other news, Kaelyn laughed for the first time yesterday! I have yet to get her to do it again, but I was tickling her and she distictly giggled twice! Oh the joys of having an infant :) I know it's odd, but I feel very proud of her when she smiles or laughs or even holds her head on her own. It must be hard, having a body and not knowing how to hold it or what to do with it. But she is growing and learning so fast, and it just makes me proud.


I've been really missing Dominic lately, it seems like he's always at school, and although he's had his work hours cut back, I just still feel he's not around enough. That said, every free moment we are together, and I thank God for that. I just don't want him to miss out on Kaelyn, like I said, she's growing so fast.

That's all that's on my mind for now...who knows when the next post will be

Til next time...xo.