Sunday, August 30, 2009

Busy Weekend :)

and you know how I love busy:)

Well, we'll start Thursday, when Dominic and I saw Inglorious Basterds. Which was, by the way, hilarious! Both of us were expecting a true story/based on a true story type of movie, and sadly it wasn't the case. I say sadly only because I wish that this story had been true! ha! You'll have to see it yourself - I'm no spoiler.

Friday. I didn't do a whole bunch Friday, but I did go and buy a baby shower gift for Ashley (and baby Riley). Also, Friday I made a couple of hairbows for Ashley's shower, and I made one for Kaelyn's outfit for the shower.

Saturday. First, I went to Ashley's shower. I had a great time! We played games, ate good food and talked and talked - and of course Ashley opened her gifts! She got some really great stuff, I'm so excited for her and her daughter! Then, after the shower I went to Dominic's and spent some time with his family. At 6 Dominic went to work, and at 7 all of the girls, and Tracie's friend all went to Pizza and Stuff -yum! We had a great dinner and talked and talked and talked :) and Kaelyn was so well-behaved :))

Saturday/SundayAM. Came home to find my dog was having puppies! We were expecting this, although we though she wouldn't have them till Tues/Wed. It was so neat to watch! I was realllllly excited! Piper had 5 puppies, but one of them didn't make it. So we now have 7 doggies!!! ahhh :))

Sunday. I had every intention of going to church this morning, really I did. But when you wake up at 6 in the morning, after having gone to bed at 1, and after having played veterinarian all night, church doesn't sound all that appealing. So, instead I went to breakfast with mt family and coldstone with Dominic.

all in all good weekend! :))

Friday, August 28, 2009

Soooooo Excited!

For Ashley's Baby Shower tomorrow!!! :) and hopefully tomorrow I hear about the job that I applied for :)) good day today, got to spend some time with babylove, which was nice indeed! I made an adorable hairbow for Kaelyn to wear at the shower, and I made two for Ashley's little girl! I can't wait to meet her! September 27th can't come soon enough, I want to have playdates! teehee! Well, I know this is short, but I promise to give you all a long post tomorrow ;)

til then, xo.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

I'm glad you needed me.

or not.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

It Seems as if the Days Keep Getting Longer...

Each day I feel like I have more things to do! Although today I'm not going out and about much, I just have quite a bit to accomplish. Like for instance,

x.job interview
x.bath (kae)
x.laundry - mountains of it!
x.&&spending time with babylove

now that I look at that list, it's not all that much, but everything takes about 10x longer with Kaelyn in tow. boo.

I've been having a lot of back-and-forth thoughts lately, mainly concerning whether or not I should go back to school this semester, or if I should wait til spring. It's so hard, because I want to be there for Kaelyn, and I don't want to have to leave her with a sitter or daycare, but at the same time, I NEED to go to school, if I don't go this semester, then I am setting myself back another year in the nursing program. :/ gah, I hate huge decisions like this.

Yesterday I got a card in the mail from the Pastor at CEFC, and it said, the generic, Thanks for coming to our church, and, we hope you'll come again soon, but it also included a Starbucks card, and said, enjoy a coffee on us! That was so nice! I have never seen a church do that before, and I thought it was really neat! Needless to say, I'll be going back there this week :)

til next time, xo.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

So, I'm think a new hair do is in order.

mhhm, It's that time! Here's what I'm thinking

first, I'm dying it this color.

second, these bangs, but side-swept

and finally, this haircut!! :)) I love it :)

ooh I'm so excited!

anywho, I had a fabulous time at My Gym today with Kaelyn. She is such a good exerciser! haha! Speaking of Kaelyn, I put her in her crib this evening, and she was on her back, lengthwise to the crib...I just checked on her and she's on her tummy, widthwise...crazy baby!

Tonight I was watching Food Network Challenge (before Big Brother, of course) and they made the coolest sugar sculpture!

I wish I could find a better picture, but that's all I could find anywhere! Anyway, the contestants had 10 hours to make these sugar skyscrapers, they had to be a replica of a real building, and this one was the Empire state building. They could only use sugar, water and eggs, and it had to have door(s), windows and some time of balcony. Phew, it was intense.

well, that's all for tonight, see you tomorrow!

til next time, xo.

[Water] for thought

I've seen this video before, yet Patrick Hennessy posted it on Facebook this morning, and I decided to share it with all of you.

I don't know what it is, but lately, I've been wanting to do something, or be part of something big. I don't know what it is yet, but I feel a pull to do something volunteer-oriented. We shall see! Besides that, I don't have much to say, I'll blog later about the rest of my day.

xo, til next time.

Monday, August 24, 2009

One Year Ago

One Year Ago
x. I had just found out I was pregnant
x. I was on the phone with APU, seeing if I could still attend
x. I had never been more scared in my life
x. I was ashamed to go to church
x. I was afraid to tell Carrie
x. I thought my life was ruined

o. I made it through
o. I have a beautiful baby girl
o. I'm making a way for myself, and for my family
o. I'm breaking the mold, and defying statistics
o. I attend 3 churches ( :
o. I'm on the dean's list
o. I'm tired, sore, restless, and still scared out of my mind,

but this by far, as been one of the most amazing years of my life. I have gone from not sure if my relationship with Dominic would last through the pregnancy, to knowing that I am lucky enough to have found my soul mate in middle school. I have gone from being a carefree teenager, to a full time mother. I have gone from my mother's child, to my mother's friend. I have surprised myself. I have become more frugal, and also more giving. More irritable, but kinder. I am everything I never saw coming, and (almost) everything I've always wanted to be.

Most importantly, I'm not ashamed. "God never gives you anything that you can't handle". He's given me strength when I thought I hit rock bottom, and HE is the reason I am here today, sound mind, body and soul. Without Him, there's nothing.

Far as I can tell, this is the life that's best for me. :)

xo, til next time

Sunday, August 23, 2009

A turn for the better :)

This weekend had a rocky start, as I'm sure you all could tell by my previous posts, that aside, it was lovely :)

I was a bit discouraged Saturday morning after multiple go-sees, and even more application hunts, only to be turned down by all by two restaurants. However, I got home and called a woman named Nancy at Covina Evangelical Free Church, and applied for the job as Nursery Worker. And she was so excited to meet me that today she had me come to the service and I had an informal interview!

So I got to the church this morning, and to my sweet surprise the church (CEFC) is led by Pastor Neal Montgomery, yes, Mark's dad. And Caitlin, Daniel, Hannah, Brian, Kaitlyn, Mark & Mason all attend. It was nice to see (some of) them, although I didn't stay long enough to talk. Next week! :)

Needless to say - I think I got the job. No for sure yes's yet, but I'm praying :))

Tonight Dominic's mom is making a yummy Thanksgiving-style dinner, and I have a lot to be thankful for. God works in mysterious ways. After this past week, I was ready to give up the job hunt, and take a semeseter off at APU to watch Kae. But after this weekend, and a probable job prospect, I am ready and rejuvenated to work on Kae's daycare status, and I am certain that it will all work out in the end. (the end really being the beginning, seeing as she's only 6 months old ;D)

Anyway, that's all for now, lots to organize still before school starts, and I want to take advantage of Kae's naptime :))

xo, til next time.

Friday, August 21, 2009

I'm determined to make a change.

I'm determined to turn this around, to fix it, make it better than it was before. But I can't do it alone. You have to be on board. I will always love you, no matter what, but in order for this to work, we both have to give all of ourselves. I'm afraid of giving and not receiving.

today WILL be a good day.
i hope.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I hate this nasty feeling

I feel like I need to throw up
I have that gross feeling you get right before something bad is going to happen

I just want to fast forward through the next four months.
this is going to be the hardest time of my life.

and I'm afraid I'm not ready.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

The List

This is my by-the-end-of-summer bucket list.
made it a couple weeks ago and I'm having trouble sticking to it.
posting should help re-motivate me

x. get a student loan
x. get kaelyn into a daycare (preferably fairplex)
x. memorize all of my cations and anions for chem.
x. organize my room so it is homework-friendly
x. work on my relationship
x. spend less than 2 hours/day on the internet
x. take care of myself
x. don’t waste my money
x. kaelyn drinking from a bottle
x. kaelyn sleeping in her crib all night – even after a feeding
x. finish painting the bathroom
x. get up between 6:30 and 7 and sleep between 10:30 and 11
x. get healthy
x. swim/run/walk three times a week
x. read the Bible everyday
x. use my planner!!!
x. perfect my handwriting

Today was a pretty bad day

although it did have it's high points.

not having a loan
having a non-english speaker try and tell me why I don't have a loan
crying on the phone to the aforementioned non-english speaker
calling APU about a money transfer, only to find I have negative money
listening to Kaelyn scream and scream and scream all day
getting yelled at/bossed around like I'm two years old
not being able to find a job
finally finding the PERFECT job with PERFECT hours, and not getting a response
having to apply at target
not being able to open a f***ing stroller (<- Told you it was a bad day)

lunch with Mrs. Black
Dominic coming over and making Kaelyn giggle like crazy
wrestling (and losing) to Dominic
getting new shoes :)

meh. That's about how I feel, and sadly, I don't think it's going to change.
going to try read la biblia, hopefully it will help.

til next time, xo

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

FAIL blog.


o. about money for school
o. about finding a daycare for Kaelyn
o. about my relationship
o. about getting through this semester
o. about not losing my MIND!

o. a new baby carrier sling
o. new school clothes
o. books for school (that's my task tomorrow >800 f'ing dollars.)
o. teething rings for babykae

o. on summer homework for my organic Chem class
o. on finding a job/maybe
o. on staying sane!
o. on getting organized

o. trying to eat out of a bottle
o. eating baby food 3x a day
o. teething (it's awful)
o. knows how to sit up
o. going to mygym on Tuesdays

x.tomorrow's to-do list
o. APU to buy books/school supplies
o. BHS to pick up hand-me-downs from Jill
o. RES to help mom in her classroom
o. Target to get school shoes for my lab classes (closed-toe only)
o. Zerpoli family friend to pick up more hand-me-downs

LINDSAY, hope your happy :))
better blog later

til next time, xo